Planet Hell

I'm writing something here for once

2005-12-07T00:47:16Z

I haven't posted anything in my journal in forever, so I figured why not put something. I've been using my Myspace blog to write journal thingys, but maybe I'll start alternating and write like every other entry in my Livejournal. Anywho, here's my Mspace blog entry about the past weekend, for the hell of it. It was good times... and bad... and very fucking thing in between:

Yeah, so originally i really wasn't looking forward to this weekend because I had a lot of work to do (which I still do now, but whatever). It turned out to be one of the craziest weekends in a while, it was, umm, quite the whirlwind of emotions, and it still all seems like kind of a blur. Anyways, I guess I'll start with thursday, I was excited because I was going over to Jonisha's and relaxing before I spent the rest of the weekend doing work. Well, from that point, everything changed. I got realy drunk, shit happened, meh, I'm not going to get into it. On thursday night I was having a good time, but the next day I was in a hell of a shitty mood, and here's the point where I start ranting and go all emo on everone...
Human nature really amazes me sometimes, I know I should expect it, but it just confuses the hell out of me. I son't understand how someone can sit there and spout all sorts of beliefs about how they're so open to everything, and how they really don't give a shit about what other people think, etc..., and then when they happen to stumble slightly outside their comfort zone they are able to abandon their beliefs completely, and change their philosophy jsut so they don't have to deal with certain uncomfortable realizations or descisions. It's ridiculous how people can take a stupid mistake and completely blow it out of proportion, just so they can feel better about themselves; how they can step all over someone and then convince themselves that it's completely justified, and they truly believe that. Thinking about this stuff almost made me physically sick, I don't understand it. It's resolved in my mind though, now, and I'll explain how it's resolved as I resume talking about my weekend.
So anyways, on friday I'm sitting around, hung over, wallowing in pointless introspection. Long story short, I felt confused, and I felt blatantly lied to. Anyways, after that I had to eventually pull myself out of that weird state, get ready, and meet my group for history. I went to the north side to one of my group member's apartment, and for working on a history project, I had a good time. We're writing songs about asian history and performing them in class, and I think we may have suceeded at creating like three of the cheesiest songs ever, it's hilarious, they make me smile. My group is fun to work with too, which helps.
After that I got a ride back to the loop, and I was feeling a lot better. Went over to Jonisha's, watched like half of the Incredibles, and after a pit-stop at my apt. Jonsha and I headed to Max's place Joe's loss of virginity party, a great premise for a party. Anyways, it was the typical Max party, which I really needed. By the end of the night I was just floating, I had a bit to drink, and smoked quite a bit,and had one of the best simultaneous buzz/high's ever. The end of the night was great, max and I were sitting around with a half-awake Monique taking SoCo shots straight out of the bottle while watching Fantasia. It was just the ultimate chill, and I kind of came to a realization at that point. The atmospher was just so great. I was there with friends who truly love me and care about me for who I am, for my sucesses and my failings. There's no pretense or bullshit when I'm around them, I felt like myself.
I passed out on the couch around 7-ish on saturday morning, and woke up at 10, had just enough time to go home, shower, and get some much needed coffee, and head out again to help on a film shoot. By the time I was out and helping though, I was fine, I didn't even have a hangover, and wasn't really very tired until much later. I was glad to help anyways, becaue Mark, the director, is just a genuinely nice person. Plus I got free Taco Bell out of it at the end of the shoot, which made it all worth it, haha. After that I was definitely exhausted. It took me a while to get to sleep, which worried me, but I ended up sleeping really well in the end.
All in all the mindset that I take away from this weekend is that I have no time to worry about things that, in the end, really don't matter. I have lot of work to do in the next 2 weeks, I need to focus, and I don't have time for petty drama, I don't need it to survive like some people seem to. I just need to appreciate the friends that I do have, those who I don't have to apologize to for my mistakes, I'd rather learn from them than dwell on them. I still feel kind of wounded, but wounds heal, I'll just be kind of on-guard for a while, I think, but hey, I'll be home in 2 weeks, and I can take a break from the stress.

quiz madness!!!!

2005-04-04T04:29:00Z

Which Star Wars Character Are You?

Darth Vader

You are the galaxies most feared figure. A giant among ants, you are a demi god and are capable of much, although you are evil.

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What is your inner-hair color?

Unnatural rainbow-ish color

A little confused are we? Maybe not, it's very likely that you are simply into change and experimenting, and what better way than dying your hair crazy colors? :-D Have fun with life m'dear, don't let anyone convince you to be normal or less unique. You're fab the way you are!

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Which Tim Burton character are you?

The Headless Horseman

Silent, but deadly.

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Which Tori Amos song are you?

Silent All These Years

You may want to be someone else for awhile, but your voice is still there.

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Back In Chi-town

2005-04-04T03:11:50Z

So, I just got back from my spring break trip to boston today, and yeah... Freaking awesome! Seriousely, I had a lot of fun on the trip, we did so many random things, and made so many random memories. Boston was a cool place to visit Oh the things we did... ate lots of really good food, saw a couple of good movies, worked out like mad everyday, there was the public debut of my new speedo, the "hike" through Waldon (aka sitting inside a room listening to sarah's professor for an hour followed by a 15 minute stroll), going to Haaaaarvaaard (you have to say it in a british accent), and yeah, a whole lot of just wandering around the city. Of course, the other night we saw Sin City, which definitely lived up to my expectations, I thoroughly enjoyed it. Umm, I have a day of homework ahead of me before school picks up again, but I'm still in a good mood from the trip. Oooh, I got some nifty shot glasses, too, on the trip, which I intend to put to good use some time in the near future, until then theyre sitting on my windowsill as decoration because they happen to match the kind of modern decor of my room quite well. Hmm, I think thats all I have to talk about, I'm sure theres more I could say, but I'm kind of tired, and not in the most focused of moods, so I guess I'll get going, family guy is on. Yay for family guy.

~Eamonn

Sitting on my ass, yay!

2005-03-24T19:19:29Z

I thought I would be doing homeork right now for my next class which is in about 5 hours, but I'm awesome and got it done yesterday, I wrote a whole five page paper in a coulple hours, it was so amazing. Anyways, yeah, so now I'm just hanging out until class, which is my las class be fore spring break! Thats about all I have to say, I'm sure I'll have more exciting things to talk about while in boston.

~Eamonn

Another day of homework?! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!

2005-03-23T18:37:43Z

Ok, I guess its not all as bad as I make it out to be, but I do have to write a five page paper all today. Luckily, however, its for my favorite class, and it won't be that hard. We just have to pick a scene from a movie and describe all the elements in it and how they are used, I'm doing my paper on the famous popping-out-of-the-chest scene from alien, it has a lot of staging, lighting, and costume elements involved, so I figure I can write a lot about it. Oh how I love the fact that sitting around watching movies equates being productive.I'm so ready for spring break to start, an I only have one more day of classes before too, so yay for me! I have a lot of screenwriting work to do over the break, bu oh well, I'll survive. Umm yeah, thats all I can think of right now. Gotta go get lunch soon so I have fuel for writing.

~Eamonn

Oh how I hate homework marathons

2005-03-21T19:37:57Z

Yeah, the title explains it all, pretty much my whole day is going to be devoted to a single purpose, churning out my evil screenwriting homework, which I'd really rather not do, but I have to. Well, I guess its not that bad, its jsut a lot of work, and it tends to stress me out a bit putting it together, I have trouble mostly with the conception of ideas for my treatment and such, mostly because I just really dont want to be a screenwriter. Anyways, other than that I have to say I'm pretty content at the moment. The cafeteria had pad-thai at lunch today which, needless to say, made me very happy. Umm yeah, I should really get back to working on that homework now.

~Eamonn

Ah, the wonders of nothingness

2005-03-20T21:59:55Z

I feel kind of bad, because I havent done a damn thing today. i was gonna maybe start my homework, but hten I realized it would be easily possible to just get it done tomorrow, so i've spent the day in my room. It wasnt neccesarily a bad doing-nothing though, it was more like a take-a-break-from-the-world day, a day just to sit and enjot nothingness, to embrace it, you know? Now i'm waiting to hear from Rumana, I;m hoping she gets back soon, cause we're supposed to go run in a little while. Umm, I can't really thing of anyhting else righ now. I am really excited about going to boston for spring break, I have a lot of shit to get done before then, but by thursday it will all be over, and it wont matter anymore, yay!

~Eamonn

Good morning everyone!!!!

2005-03-19T18:00:57Z

I know... its almost afternoon, but oh well. I did actually get up around 9 this morning though and already went to Target to get some stuff I needed, and then I went to Starbucks and got a Chai latte. So yeah, I was all ambitious this morning and stuff, and it fel really good. My legs were a bit sore from working out yesterday, but I got over it, and by the time I was out and walking around it was gone, so whatever. I think we're goingot go work out again today, which is a good thing, I really like doing it, as much as I've conditioned myself in the past to loathe any kind of physical activity. So yeah, one day of doing it and I'm aready in a better state of mind as a result. Well, that and other aspects ofmy life are seeming a little less hopeless too, which helps. I guess I'll get going, mostly because I have nothing else to say.

~Eamonn

Yo

2005-03-18T23:49:37Z

Well, not a whole lot to report. Well, actually, I guess there are a couple things to talk about. Ok, so the boy who Jonisha and i saw on the elevator that one time that was supposedly checking me out, yeah, Jonisha talked to him, and he think's I'm cute and wants to meet me!!! That made me so happy, apparently he's really cool too, at least thats what Jonisha tells me. Other than that, I used the workout room in my building for the first time, and it was so great. Its not very big, and doesnt have a whole lot of equipment, but theres hardly ever anyone in there. I really need to start doing that more often, Rumana goes down there a lot, so Ill probably be going a lot more too. Oh, and guess who walked in while i was down there, ok i think sarah is the only one who knows about this, but this adoreable blonde boy from m aesthetics class was down there, which provided some eye candy, hehe. Anyways, enough about boys, I'm gonna get going, were gonna go get dinner soon.

~Eamonn

Hola!

2005-03-16T23:10:36Z

Not much to report, I just have nothing better to do right now then update my journal before I go eat in a few minutes. Hmm, really not much going on. I had trouble staying awake in physics today, even though I slept pretty well last night. Oh well, i survived. But things changed for the better after that. first of all, my group got our lab done early, and we got to leave early, which was a damn good thing, because I was STARVING. So yeah, I went outside, and it was so fucking warm and nice out! So I came inside for a little bit, ate some much needed lunch, and headed outside. I dont have much homework tongiht, so there was no way in hell I wasnt going to take advantage of the weather. SO I went to sporta authority to look at swimsuits cause I'm probably going swimming at sarah's gym over spring break, and i really want to start doing it here for excersise, since I dont do anyhting else. THe only problem was that because of some recent bank problems I had no money in my account, but I'm going back on friday cause everything will be taken care of by then. Anyways, after that I walked around for a bit in the crowded streets, and then got sick of the tourists and headed back. It was just a really nice day, I didnt do very much, but it was nice. If I start swimming too, I think it will have nothing but a positive effect on my mental health. So yeah, now I'm gonna eat dinner w/ rumana and micheal, and then study like mad for my japanese test.

~Eamonn

columcollegekid @ 2005-03-15T18:28:00

2005-03-16T00:32:15Z

Serenity NOW!!!

(sorry, just watching Seinfeld, I had to do it...)

Now that I'm back from wherever the hell i was this weekend...

2005-03-15T23:19:29Z

I just relized tha I havent posted in a couple days, and realized what a blur this weekend was, maybe because I drank every night. The weekend started on a high note, which i believe I described in my last post. That night was so much fun, but it all went downhill from there, and then on sunday, which I'm not going to get into because a lot of bad things happened that night that I'd rather not talk about, it just all went to hell. Anyways, back to class today, and I'm in a pretty good mood, kinda tired, but I dont have much to do tonight, just a physics lab report which will take all of fifteen minutes. Yeah, thats it for now.

~Eamonn

Wow

2005-03-12T18:37:23Z

Oh man, yesterday was nuts. Yeah, my band played their first show las night at this Columbia open-mic thing, and we were amazingly well recieved, plus we all had a damn good time playing. We even had this guy tell us that we were "original" and that he wanted a demo as asoon as we could get him one. Yeah, so that was cool. Then we went back to joes, watched Pouth Park, and then when his brother got back we went for an alcohol runand went to Max's place to celebrate our first show and such. We al got really fucked up, it was hilrious, we were all like having this loud drunken singalong to The Smashing Pumpkins at 2 in the morning, it was great. And today I don't even really feel sick. I mean, I'm a little tired, but I dont have my usual hangover symptoms, which is good.

~Eamonn

Hair

2005-03-10T19:54:48Z

So, nothing interesting to report, other than I was trying to put a picture of my new hair color on here, but apparently you can only link to pictures that are actually on the internet, at least with a free account, so thats kind of pissing me off. Umm yeah, I have class in four hours, then I might be doing somehting with Jonisha afterwards. Yeah, thats all.

~Eamonn

Late night fun... umm, not really

2005-03-10T06:11:38Z

Yeah, so I was really bored and decided to take that personality test thing that Amber did. I'd say it was pretty accurate, at least fo my state of mind right now, I guess. So yeah, here are the results:

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results

Sociability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	13%
Assertiveness	\|\|\|	3%
Activity Level	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Excitement-Seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	29%
Enthusiasm	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	21%
Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|	20%
Trust	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Morality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	75%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Cooperation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Modesty	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	69%
Sympathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	77%
Friendliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	67%
Confidence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	21%
Neatness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	28%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	15%
Achievement	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	99%
Self-Discipline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	21%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	24%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Volatility	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	81%
Depression	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Self-Consciousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	94%
Impulsiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	57%
Vulnerability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	92%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	22%
Imagination	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	24%
Artistic Interests	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	95%
Introspection	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	29%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Liberalism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	94%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	61%

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Oh the bleach fumes!

2005-03-10T00:30:57Z

So yeah, i got back from an interesting day. We did everything I said we were going to do in my last post, and it was pretty fun. It was at least nice to get out and do something. SO yeah, now were back, and I'm in Rumana and Micheal's room and I'm dying my hair, yay! I hope it turns out good. Either way, it will be something different, I guess. I've never tried pink before, so it should be interesting. Umm, yeah, thats about it.

~Eamonn

Hi Everbody!!!

2005-03-09T19:04:53Z

So, I'm feeling much better than I did last night, I was really pissed off. But today, I got up, was really tired, but class was actually pretty cool today. We watched some parts of movies in Physics, and got to go outside to do our lab, so yeah, it was a even more bearable because of that. Umm, yeah, so in a little while I'm going with RUmana and Micheal to their high school b/c they need to pick up some papers or something, and then we're stopping at The Alley so I can get bright pink hair dye! Oh the fun. Seriousely, I'm really excited, i'm getting tired of the faded bluish-green. I'll post a picture after I do it. Hmm, I think thats pretty much all I have to report at the moment.

~Eamonn

Holy fucking shit!!!!

2005-03-09T04:29:18Z

Ok, I was actually in a good mood, the stress of the documentary project has been lifted, i was gonna relax, get some sleep, but of course, any of my plans have a knack for turning to shit. Richie I guess is having another birthday aprty on a tuesday night, which means drinking, shitty music, and loudness until like five in the fucking morning. I mean who fucking parties on a tuesday?! One of these days Jonisha is gonna come over (as she said she wants to hang out here more), were going to get totally drun, and bitch out my roomates, and its going to be fun as hell. Umm yeah, thats it, just pretty fucking pissed off right now, but I have no desire to leave my room and confront them ,theres too many of them. This is seriousely bullshit though. AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!! Anyways, thats all I have to say.

~Eamonn

Its done, dear god, it's finally done!!!

2005-03-08T18:57:15Z

So I missed Japanese class today, but I'm really not feeling too bad about it. I mean this is the first class I missed al year, and one class isnt going to matter, especially since nothing was due today and there's no test or anything. ANyways, the reason I missed the class was because last night I completely lost my focus and nearly fell asleep on the keyboard as I worked on mt documentary projuct. But now it's done, thats the last I'll see of it, thank god. That project wa seriousely hell. None of the other projuects seem nearly as bad, (we have to write a narrative, and an experimental treatment later in the semester) So yeah, I'm really happy about that. I just got back from lunch, and now I'm just going o relax and enjoy the 45 minutes or so that I have before class.

~Eamonn

Ok, what the hell just happened?!

2005-03-07T20:10:13Z

THe day started out pretty normally, I got up, tooka a shower, loafed around my room for a while, then went to meet Mana and Micheal in the cafeteria. Just like a minute after we sat down and started eating Rumana asked Micheal about some person he knows or something, and then Micheal just runs off to the elevators all pissed off. So naturally, we chase him (he does that sometimes, but usually its just to be stupid) This time it was different though, he wouldnt come back and eat So anyways, rumana ended up following him upstairs, but left her ID in the cafeteria. So I went ant took the ID up to their room, and it looked like RUmana was crying, and I dont know why, bu it really freakedm me out. Something about the situation just seemed... wrong, I guess. I mean it so profoundly effected my mood that I was on the verge of crying on the elevator ride back down to my room. I mean its natural to care for your friends, obviousely, but why do I feel now, after this little incedent, like everything is just falling a part. I mean I a literally shaking right now, and I dont know what to do, I feel really lost right now. This isnt good, cause in about half an hour I have to go do my interview so I can do my documentary project tonight. Yeah, so I'm gonna go now, theres not really anything else to say.

~Eamonn

umm, hi

2005-03-06T21:33:18Z

Holy shit, it is so nice outside, I think I'm just going to have a heart attack and die! Ok, not really, but it is freakishly warm and suny out, especially for this time of year. I met my cousin for lunch and then wlaked around all day, it was great. I bought Some Kind of Monster today, which I'm going to watch later. Umm, thats pretty much it. Oh, I have been thinking about something lately, and I've determined that I really need a boyfriend. I mean sonetimes I just really wish I had someone to go to and just like, I dont know, I need comfort of some sort, I guess, a shoulder to cry on, to go with the cliche. But yah, Jonishas gonna help me look, since she does know a LOT of gay guys. Yeah, so now that I'm done ranting about that, I guess I'll get going.

~Eamonn

Oh the random happenings

2005-03-06T00:51:23Z

So, hmmm, today was random, but fun. I went ou with Rumana and Micheal to Best Buy. Rumana bought Requiem For a Dream and Pi, which I think we're going to watch tonight. Anyways, it was nice to go out for the day. So now we're back, had fajitas for dinner, and we all currently have laundry in the dryer. Umm, I'm meeting Shelby tomorrow and we're gonna get lunch and then hang out for the day, which I'm really looking forward to. That's about it.

~Eamonn

Which Hedwig Character am I?

2005-03-04T21:59:26Z

You are that lovable botched transexual heroine,
the East-German HEDWIG (formally Hansel)!!!!

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Anywho, last night wasn't very exciting, but was kinda fun. Drank, but didnt really get drunk, did randoms hit, went for a walk, went to bed a 6:00 this morning. It really sucks for Rumana and Michel though, they both have class today, and Mana was really drunk last night. Hmm, today I'm hopefully getting together with my cousin, Shelby, which is always fun. Yeah, thats about it.

~Eamonn

Well hello there... litlle child..... I've come to inquire.... about your spoons...

2005-03-03T23:05:14Z

Not uch to report, but I'll do it anyways. I'm sittinag around watching the simpsons, have class in about half an hour. I did start my painting today. Got quite bit done on it, actually, but then I had to read for class. Ummm, yeah, thats abou it. I dont know exactly what I have planned for the rest of the week (other than finishing off the rum that I have with Rumana and Micheal) But yeah, I'm done.

~Eamonn

Feeling constructive for once? Hmm, this could be a new thing for me...

2005-03-02T23:22:49Z

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Ok, I don't know why i've decided to share this, but here goes anyways. So, I brought all my old art supplies back to Chicago with me last time I was in phoenix, you know, all the shit I got when I was in AP art. I just remembered that I had rought it, had some spare time, and decided to start on an art project. I forgot how great it is to be working on an art piece, no mtter if its good or if its shit, it just feels good to be working on this stuff again, especially when its not forced, I'm not doing it for a class.

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Ok, hopefully this works, if it didnt I was trying to post the basis for the painting I'm going to do. Its also going to have the works "This is me, Fall forever, one of the lost ones" written in the sky.

~Eamonn